Goodbye 2010, Welcome 2011^^

I have gone through a worse year of 2010, i hope for the better in 2011. I done too many wrong things and have many unhappy experiences. I hate it. But i don't regret it, no matter what, i will keep moving on. Life goes on anyway. It's time to create a new chapter of my life. Have the courage to forget and change. Change for the better and become the best of myself. I seriously think that i had choose the wrong course and some people make me feel even more regret about the choice i made. What a bunch of annoying scums... I don't want regret anymore, i want to achieve my dream no matter what!


Just hanging around with friend now. We walk to a place not far from our college and have a supper there. It's really nice and it's open air. Not to mention there is a LCD displaying a movie. Unfortunately the movie is not my cup of tea T.T
I ordered an Ice Apple Juice, cost me 1.50 bucks. Not bad, freshly made apple juice. My friend ordered a burger with eggs. Cheap and tasty. Yummy!~~~XD I didn't order any food because i am still full at that time, i don't want to get a stomachache. I still can go there at other time.=)
We talk for about an hour about the activities we are going to do tomorrow. Quite a happy chat anyway. Then, we walk back. On the way, we met some annoying brats. Really stupid the way they act. ==''*PISSED*
The night is warm. But we need to watch our steps on the way back or you will kick a stone and your feet will be in pain. They really should put more effort in improving the road condition==''
Sign, tonight got loads of assignments need to do and the due date is near. What a busy life.....

Skype-ing with friends~~~XD

Wahaha, i am so happy that i can talk to my best friend just now using skype. It's been a long time since i see her. She is studying dentistry at oversea. She is my best best friend ever in this world.
We talk for about an hour. Since she is skype-ing at a cyber cafe, it's quite dark and can't see her face clearly but she can see me well. Then she told me the owner of the cafe said i am, *cough*, beautiful~~~~~~XD WAHAHA!!!
Whether it is true or not, i am not sure, but i think it's funny, anyway~XD
Aow, i miss her a lot. I wish i can see her soon~~~T.T*teary*
But i have to wait for five years~~~DX noooooooooooo!!
Oh well, never mind, i can wait, we will definitely see each other again after we have our job. We have money and will be able to plan a gathering in the future~~~~XD
I can't wait for it~~~~XD
So, study hard now, June~~~~^.^

Pray For You by Jaron & The Long Road To Love

I heard this song when my senior recommended it on facebook. Cool~~~~XD

I haven't been to church since I don't remember when
Things were going great '˜til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you cant go hating others who have done wrong to you.
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn.
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them.

I pray your brakes go out running down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are honey, I pray for you

I'm really glad I found my way to church
'Cause I'm already feeling better and I thank God for the words.
Yeah I'm going take the high road,
And do what the preacher told me to do,
You keep messing up and I'll keep praying for you.

I pray your tire blows out at 110.
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos.

I pray your brakes go out running down a hill.
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I'd like to.
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,
wherever you are honey, I pray for you.
I pray for you

I am joining Orchestra!!XD

Yeah, i got orchestra for my co-curriculum. I have always been imagining myself as part of an orchestra performance. This make me felt so happy when i know that i can get what i want. But it's just a beginning and i'll need to work hard for it. Orchestra is very 'hot' co-curriculum at here. I have to wait till 12am just to apply for it. First come first serve. Then, i get it~~XD

I am so happy.

Well, i choose my co-cu based on my interest, not for the "A's" sake. Some of my friends choose something which can get an A easily. But i don't want to waste my time on something that i don't like. Because life is too short for any of us to waste it.=)

Damn you!

I have been wondering why those people are so selfish. They just care for themselves. They are unwilling to share information. It’s not that I want to think like that about them. But the realities are telling the truth. How annoying. Sometimes I am wondering why I befriend with those useless scum. They are nice. They are friendly. But, that’s just when they need you. They hurt me. I am willing to share useful information with you, but you just don’t want to share with me? I am considering you all as my friends. How could you. This world is so much scarier than I thought. I hate this world. Sigh, I really have no ideas about what is going on these people’s head. I don’t have any extra energy to do so. I have something that’s much more important than those insignificant things. Yeah, that’s right. I have something that’s very important. I don’t want to waste my time on you all. I need to accomplish my goal. I want to be the person I want to be.


Oh well, you know, i may look shy and quiet. But i am not. I am just doing my best in my part to be a good girl. I just love to break the rule. By the way, i hate rules. Most of the rules are quite stupid. It's annoying that all of us need to follow the rules and can't do the things that we really like. I mean as long as the things doesn't hurt yourselves. I do have my own principles. I would never ever do things that will hurt myself and the one i care. Mind you, the one i care is only my family and my best friends. I only have a few best friends. I am very picky when choosing a best friend. Of course i have a lot of friends, but they are just friends. Nothing more nothing less. JUST FRIENDS. Once i considered they are my best friends and i'll treasure them. And they should not betray me or i'll really really hurt and i'll tend to hurt you back. I hate betrayal. I don't forgive.
There are always have things that i really want to do. For example, i want a backpack journey at other countries. I'll just bring a few things and travel around the world at the countries i like. I just want to escape from this sophisticating life. I am tired of my so-called responsibilities. I just don't like this world. It's way too fake. Everyone are pretending or else they'll call you weirdo. Honestly, if there's a change, i would want to be a little child again. There will be nothing for me to worry. =D

=="Useless brats

There are some KIND of people who really gets on my nerve. It just like some son of biatch. They maybe not the worst kind of human i have ever met, but, trust me, they deserve to go to hell. I have been very patient towards them. My patient already reach its limit. I am really going to explode at any time now. They are worst, alright, to make the matter worse, they can't even do a simple tiny thing right. All they did is making the matter worsen. I don't know what did they learn for the last 12 years in school. They are such a poor upbringing. Pity their parents for having such a trash as a child. Well, i am 'SORRY'*sarcastic* for using harsh words towards you, but i don't think anyone will want me to yell at their faces with some disgusting saliva flying. Don't worry, i'll pray for you. I'll pray that a flower pot falling from sky and hit you head. I'll also pray that your bike lost control at the speed of 110. I am evil.

>.< so many assignments, test, quizzes and report~

I think i am going to go crazy. There are so many things to do in a short time. The problem is the report. Well, i don't have any problem in writing a report. But the problem is that the report is suppose to be a group work. And i am the one who is doing all the report work! They are doing their job but all they give me is a piece of shyte. I didn't meant to be rude but their attitude start to getting on my nerve. They are not serious when completing the assignment and didn't even follow the format of writing a report. When i saw their work (they are suppose to hand it to me), all i can think is "WTH". I did told them what i felt about this report and their attitude. But i don't think they are making any effort to improve their lazy-a*s-attitude. I am sick of it. But, well, think positively, i gain more than them anyway.

I am back here again =.=''

Honestly, if it weren't because i need to continue my study, i won't have come here in the first place. I don't like this place at all. To tell the truth, i am the type who really values family and i just love my home. If i am given the chance, i would want to stay at home forever. But, in reality i can't do that. I'll have my responsibility and need to get a job. I will still need to stay at outside when i got a job. impossible i'll still have to stay at home even when i have my job. I really hate it especially when i can't go back during some important day. For example, chinese new year. The flight is so expensive that my family can't afford it. And i'll have to stay at hostel all alone. It's annoying to have those feeling of being left alone, i just hate it. It's feel like you are being abandoned and so pity. I really wish i was come from a damn rich family. In this way, i don't need to worry about the money. I have been very sensitive to money issue. Wondering why this world is so unfair.

Why am i alive?

I have been wondering for some time now: why am i alive and what do i live for. Recently, i know the answer for myself. I am alive because i have job that i need to accomplish. I want to make my family happy and live a better life. I want to help other people, especially those needy. I have this idea after i watch a video. It pains me greatly. It also make me realize that there are so many people who need my help. But considering my present situation, i don't have enough money or strength to help them. I will do my best to help those near me. But first, i need to help myself. In order to get a good job that i like with good salary, i must study hard and harder to achieve my goal. I must get good result no matter what. Yes, this is my goal. I want to make this world a better place. I know it's not easy and is an childish dream. Besides, i also want my parents to be proud of me and can live their life happily after retired. Sign..., they will retire in a few years time. And i still have younger brothers. I'll need to study hard now. I don't want to disappoint my parents further. I felt guilty every time i waste my time doing nonsense. I am sorry, mum, dad. I promise i'll study hard from now on. Forgive me if i said or done something that hurt you. I am sorry, I love you all^^

SNSD-Before and After?

I saw their before and after pictures. People said they undergo plastic surgery and that's why they look so different. In my opinion, i think it's mostly because of make-up, lost of weight, take good care of their skin, change of fashion and many others. They said, there are no ugly women, only have lazy women. It's true that if a girl take good care of herself and with fashion sense, she can be beautiful. I just start listening to their songs recently, and it's nice. Wondering why some people said most of the members can't sing. Honestly, they are beautiful^^ I wish i can be like them. But, oh well, i would better back to reality where i belong to.

i am lost

I am lost. I don't know what i live for. I wasted my life. I wasted my time everyday doing non-senses. I tried to make a change. But nothing get better. I don't know what's wrong with me. I am thinking over and over again about the causes that i wasted my life and my time. I read some books to help me in changing my life for the better. I can only maintain my enthusiasm for a while. I guess this is the reason why i failed to live a successful life. I pray to god to help me and i am doing my best to help myself. But i still felt myself being abandoned by god. Nothing change but it's getting worse. I am not some spoiled brats. It's not like i love to complain. I have best friends, i mean REAL best friends. There are two of them. Little. But i am glad i meet them. Guess i am really picky when i choose my friends. We are far apart. I miss them very much. I have other friends. But they are not the 'best friend' type. I am lonely over here. I want them to be by my side. I only can act naturally when i am together with them. For other time, i am quiet. And i am even more quiet now. People start to think i am really passive. I am invisible here. No body will care if i disappear one day. I know i still have my family. But i need friends, too. I treasure my best friends. I won't let go once i decide they are my best friends.

If You Die Tomorrow

When we think about it seriously, it's pretty scary. Some of us idling away our time without doing anything useful. I once read one story from somewhere. It's about one businessman who always want to take his wife and children to go vacation. However he only want to do it only after he settle down his business affair. Finally, he got heart attack and die while having a meeting held at japan. So, use your time wisely and sure there is no regret.